You're going to ask me, you're going to say, "What about things that are not beautiful? Not all of life is beautiful."
I have to offer myself to a world that is moderate, hurting, and straight disgraceful (of course I do), but my soul does not have to be interlaced into it.
Let me offer you an example:
Relationships.
SHOOT. darnit! I did it. I took an oath when I started this blog to never (never never) spill on relationships. I hereby unpleadge myself out of that promise (but just for this post and this post only).
Now, when I say relationships, don't assume I just mean Mr. & Mrs (Or the attempt to become one of the two) For I do not.
I want my relationships to be beautiful.
I can attest to relationships that are not as beautiful. I have actually been un legally wedded in my heart to more than a couple. For the sake of any uncertainty, I will double express your thoughts away from romantic relationships. I do not demand regret on the past. I just wish I could have set myself up for better safety.
God is considerate. You know? Even though I've hurt and been hurt, I've strived to be forgiven and once again, happy (beautiful). I can't carry what I've done forever. I can't dwell on what's happened to me. By the grace that God bestowed upon me I was pulled out of a pool of drowning tears. Forgave, Forgiven, Beautiful.
I'm having a hard time transitioning in my writing from unhealthy sould ties to the healthiest God given ones. So, while i scratch my head over my next move, bear with the scratchy transition.
My Mom and Dad are the most soul tied God loving holy wonderful relationships that I have and will ever have in my life. I will always love and respect both of them to the very ends of the earth. How do you repay parents that raise you under the love and covering of God. I don't know that you ever can until you have your own kids, and you become the same for them. Isn't that the sweetest cycle?
My Sisters. Ok, here we go... first of all, I am so proud of the both of them. They have become the most significant, important people. They play such huge roles, and they do it so skillfully.
Kaitlyn, the oldest. The sweet little housewife and momma. So tender and caring, loving and creative. No one can match her role, because it's her own creation. She has made herself the most beautiful sister, mother, daughter, youth pastor, worship leader, church serving wife that loves the Lord. What a beautiful women. The relationship I have with her and her wonderful husband, Travis is precious and forever.
Kasi, the youngest. The one that just swore herself into the air force. This girl is ridiculous. What a bold sweet women. Watch out world, there will be a flood of tears the moment she gets assigned (my poor mother) Her hugs are also quite anointed. If you want a hug from God, hug her.
I want both of my sweet nieces to know every single day, how much i love them. There should never to be any question
in their heart, for dear God, I do love their cute little baby faces. Everything about the both of them. Here's a video I had of bethany watching barney on my computer. I could watch it over and over and over and over.
How the heck am I suppose to write something about my little brother, Joseph. I don't have the skills.
This kid is responsible for more than half the smiles I have ever had. There's a never ending great debate between the two of us: Which movie is better: "Star Wars" or "You've got mail"? I know it's obvious to all of us that you've got mail beats the movie to its grave but nevertheless, Joseph will battle for its great name.
God was so sweet to me when he sent me Erica. She's such a close friend. but, really. Seriously the most entertaining person I have ever met. i am telling you, this girl performs me to tears. Will I ever meet anyone that I can laugh with the way I laugh with her? Nope, because she's the funniest person in the world. I moved away from my family and she filled a really sad gap. I'm still sad, but not as sad. She knows my deepest darkest most awful and most wonderful secrets. What a blessing.
I must note that my grandparents and aunts and uncles and my sweet church family/friends are absolutely irreplaceable.
mostly though, these relationships are the one's that are lasting. you know what? they are all so beautifully placed by the hand of God. and that's why it works. so the only thing I am teaching myself:
I must be a friend to everybody (I LOVE EVERYONE!). Please don't misinterpret. Of course I do. But God gives us those consistent ones, the ones he wants us to be closer than close to.
these people I've secured myself to
and the thing about it is
It's beautiful