As always (always always), my God was there. I felt like He was so far away from me, hiding from everything I got myself stuck in. I found Him absent, and that is the very thing that made me need Him more. He wasn't absent from me, I became absent from Him.
"I take my heart and willingly rip it open
for I only want to cling to you
I don't want to cling to another
I've been chased by all those other loves
and I've forgotten you
and I confess
I need You"
The work I do here, The life I live now, Is the one you fought for. I feel so blessed to have it because I had to struggle for it, but you struggled much more.This crazy little life of busyness is the one I pleaded You would give me. You allowed me the time to discover how very much i wanted it. And in that time, I became so aware of how trustworthy You are. It was so personal, that it made me the person I am.
those horrible days
the ones you literally had to drag me through
I Am grateful for those days
I am grateful for every horrible moment of them
My heart is happy because you saved me
